The difficult act of seeking forgiveness

Imagine two people...

The first has no thought of sin, treating it lightly and seeing little need for forgiveness. True, from time to time he behaves in such a way that even he is momentarily disgusted with his own behaviour and so makes excuses, or perhaps admits an to 'error of judgement' or even offers an oblique apology.

The second person knows she needs forgiveness but finds it so hard to accept. She knows that God has made a name for himself as being good at forgiving people. He's had plenty of practice and it appears to come easily to him; in fact he even seems able to forgive really nasty people. But where the problem arises is in her willingness to forgive herself. It's exactly here that she trips over God's apparently poor judgement in matters of forgiveness: she asks for forgiveness and Jesus looks her in the eye and gently says, "I can forgive you", but then she finds she cannot forgive herself! Forgiveness sought, offered, but not accepted...

These two meet at Calvary, and at the foot of the cross both find their answer there, in Jesus' outstretched arms.

The first person sees a brutalised man, bloodied and bruised, dying on a cross. Not the kind of scene that he usually entertains, yet he cannot turn his eyes away. Looking into Jesus' eyes, the gaze is returned and the pain and hurt he has caused by his own drunken actions runs before his eyes, the shocking poverty of his global-neighbour resulting from his own unthinking greed is exposed, and he is appalled at his own inner emptiness, selfishness and sin. He looks again and sees Jesus' outstretched arms, not so much nailed to the cross as holding all his sin in the palm of his hands, and offering forgiveness. He falls on his knees...

The second person knew about the cross, but had not been there in person before. God may be very good at forgiving, she thought, but she found it so very hard! She had prayed for forgiveness, yet still held onto the guilt; she longed to be at peace, but remained deeply troubled; she longed to let go, but still chided herself for what she had done.

But then she looked up at the person on the cross and their eyes met. He seemed to be saying, "Is it really so easy for me to forgive? Do you really think my standards are lower than yours? Yet I do forgive you. Will you now forgive yourself?" And she is drawn to his outstretched arms, inviting her, and knew then that he had done all that was needed there on the cross. She knew she was loved, precious and that her sin had been completely dealt with; that she was forgiven!

They met at Calvary, and at the foot of the cross both found their answer there, in Jesus' outstretched arms.